She was there the whole night yesterday. She tried to make me feel better. but i guess it didn't work on me. She cried along with me. and i felt bad. because i made her cry. i tried to make myself better. it didn't work either. i didn't know what to do. so i tried to sleep. little did i realise that she stayed by side till i fell asleep. which makes me want to cry even more. why is she being so nice to me? she never gave up on me even when i got myself into the stupidest nonsense. she always stood by me. except when i quarrel with darling. she will always take his side. but not mine. yesterday meant alot to me. because knowing that she will always be with me no matter what happens. but it just won't be the same. she woke me up at 12:30am when she realised i've not eaten the whole day and the fact that i was fasting. finished eating, went to bed. and cried again. she was there the entire time. this time, she didn't cry with me. which is good. and again she was there till i fell asleep again. sorry i made you see the most pathetic side of me.

for all that, i love you mom.