Dear (insert name),

i'm sorry if you got to thinking that i was leading you on. but you kept pushing me. kept pushing me to have you in my life. i didnt like it all. not abit. but i was nice. i kept quiet. it came to a point when you were really into me. you gave me all the attention. but i felt like i was suffocating in your 'love'. you said and i quote,

"i already gave you my heart 9 months ago..."

i simply cannot picture that you were actually liking me behind yOt^amOs's back! you both were close. you're a nice guy. but i just... cannot open my heart to love another. i'm open to close-friends relationship like what i have here with my best buddy. and you said and i quote,

"if by doing this will make yot come back to you......"

now thats a big no no right there. i am not hoping for anything. if it happens, alhamdullillah. if not, takde jodoh kan. and me and yot, we're still good friends. he still takes care of my well-being. and for that, i'm still thankful for that good relationship. i still prioritise his family above all. and i hope you understand. because they are still the family that i have here. so please. stop pushing me into accepting you into my life. i cannot seem to love another. not in this short time. i just want to be friends. with anyone. i made clear to you right from the start. dont hope too much. but you kept hoping. when i said no, you were heartbroken. so you tell me, whose fault was it? i did say give me time. but no, you kept pushing and pushing. therefore, i chose, no. so sorry. but thats just the way it is.

remember. i cannot seem to love another. not in this short time. keep trying tho.

i need my privacy. so dear mom, i dont know how to tell you off. but please stop going through my hp while i'm asleep. its not like i'm stupid. i know what you're doing. the more you restrict me, the more i will try to break free. so dont even try.