i told myself it would just be a matter of time. before everything starts to come crashing down on me. yet again.

CLOSE FRIENDS:

i'm only 19. i should be like any other girl. going shopping, simply lepak-ing dengan members, making merry, meeting new people, falling in love, going out with boyfriend, spending time with him. but why? why can't i do all that? day after day, there's always something ruining my day. ruining the happiness i have just built. did i do too many wrongs? i'm only 19. at the end of the day, i'm just a girl. i'm weak. i need someone.

Dear God, please. give me a sign. something. i'm very tired. at times i want to give up.

trying to follow your antics. trying to be who you want me to be. am i only in this world to please people? i tried. i really tried. i gave more than what i have. but this is just so hard to keep up with. just so hard.

please. stop of all this. begging You.