When i saw how bro and sis got married, i was about to cry. tears of happiness. but deep down, i cannot fool myself. that it could have been me sitting in that chair at that very moment. it could have been my day. it could have been our day. just one foolish mistake and stupid words, were all it took, to destroy the happiness that i've been waiting for. it was all it took, to bring me down. it was all it took, to lose the trust of someone so dear.

Rivelino, you said i'm smart. so i said, if i was smart, i wouldn't have lost in this game of love. i would have known how to play it right from the start.

it shook me hard. really hard. i fell. right in the face. but that fall too, took away every single thing that i have left. it took away my heart. it took away my ability to love another.

Naqiah, i should have known. right from the start. i didnt know a single thing about it at all! if only i had known the true story, i wouldn't have said what i said. but now its too late to turn back time. i've lost everything girl. semuanya dalam sekelip mata je! so it was all just a smokescreen. why do such people even exist??

when i finally gathered my courage to salam sis, it wasn't so bad after all. i still stayed strong. but when it came to bro, i really couldn't help it. i wanted to cry. i was damn proud of him. but at the same time, that little voice kept going on and on that it could have been me. bro kept saying thanks to me, and held my hand tightly. and i knew, that was the last time i would be the last time i would be in that kind of situation. deep down, it was hard. but that salam, was similar to saying goodbye.

that's the end of your singlehood, bro. you're on your way to becoming a father sometime soon. i might not be there. but you're always the bro i never had. and i'm sorry. i'm truly sorry that its ending soon.

a foolish mistake, was all it took. now i'm left with nothing. nothing but memories. and i'm done with life. no amount of SORRYs can make up for it. i was vulnerable. i fell for it. falling for it made me lost you. i'm sorry, truly sorry. if by ending my life will make you feel better, i will gladly do it. i've done you too much wrong. too much to make you come back to me.

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